Ice princess.

I didn’t know how I changed, how I built this cold piece of barrier around me… Just when I thought I had gotten over him, I realized that I had not, not until someone else came around and helped me…
I walked in the school hallway which was always filled with people. People started to give way when they saw it was me till someone grabbed my wrist and turned me around. “What the hell are-“ I turned around just to see my boyfriend, I mean not exactly boyfriend, Keith. Before I could speak, he exploded into a rush of colourful words. “What the heck were you thinking? Cheating behind my back? Do you think I’m stupid?! You this freaking bitch, thinking that you are superb huh?” He spat those words at me. The whole hallway turned silent, so quiet that even if a pin drops, you could hear it clearly. I smiled sarcastically back at him and flung my wrist off his hold. “What do you think mister? Before you dated me, you should already know my reputation in this school, but you chose to ignore it. So whose fault is it? Is it mine? Don’t say as if like I’m the only one in wrong here. Don’t think I don’t know what the hell you were doing when you were dating me. You, flirting with the ladies in the club, lying to me that you’re busy. Don’t think I’m stupid. Think before you try to blame anything on me. Besides, our love is only a game. You knew it, so don’t act as if I belong to you and only you.” With the last word, I spun on my heels and walked off, leaving him in shock and nothing to say.
Are you asking me what’s happening? Well, in this school people are scared of me. Just say the name Jasmine and people would be scared, being girl or boy. I’ve the power to kick them out of the school as my dad is the major stockholder in the school. Whatever I do, he doesn’t care as long as I don’t get into major trouble. People called me the ‘ice princess’ and it wasn’t for nothing. I sighed, that idiot totally ruined my mood for the whole day. I turned around and went back home, not caring if the teacher does report to my father or not. I locked myself in the room, a flood of memories went through me as I thought about that Keith had said, “Cheating behind my back? ...”
[Flashback] I was holding hands with Dan while walking home. We enjoyed the comfortable silence around us and I thought I was the happiest girl on earth. Just as we reached my doorstep, I asked him “Do you want to come in?” He shakes his head no, “I’ve something on later on, shall pop in later in the evening.” He grinned my favourite smile at me. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and walked away. I went back into my room and changed to comfortable clothes. Just then my best friend, Jennie, called me. “Hey Jas, are you free now?” I thought about it, since Dan wouldn’t be here till evening. “Yeah, till evening. Why?” “I’m really bored, come to the park nearby please?” “Sure, in 10 minutes.” I packed the stuff I need and headed down to the nearby park where Jennie and I always hang out.
Jennie and I sat at the swing for god knows how long. We chatted about many stuff, mostly about relationships and life. Just then, we heard giggling and laughter behind. We turned around just to face a few trees. “Dan! Stop it, it’s ticklish.” I heard a girl said, the voice is awfully familiar. Dan? No, it couldn’t be. Not my Dan… My doubts were cleared when Jennie and I inched closer to the voice, just to see Dan, MY Dan, kissing the girl I had always hated, Wendy. She’s the snobbiest bitch in my school, often looking down on people, including me. Both of them turned around when Jennie shouted, “What the hell are you doing with Wendy?!” Dan immediately pushed Wendy away and tried to hold my hands, “Jasmine! It’s not what you think. It’s Wendy; she tried to kiss me first!” “What? You’re blaming on me? You’re the one who said that you loved me and you were just playing with her!” Wendy shrieked as she pointed at me. “What?” The word came out as soft as a whisper. “No Jasmine, listen to me.” I really could not think clearly now. I turned and ran away; I didn’t care if it was Jennie or Dan who was shouting for me. I just could not think straight right now.
While I ran, things were starting to get into my head. Dan and Wendy, Dan cheating on me, Dan playing on me, Dan loved Wendy. Why? Oh god. I immediately stopped running when I started to choke on the air. Or was it tears? I started to gasp and cry. Sitting down on the pavement, I didn’t care how I looked now. So all those happiness I had before was fake, nothing was real at all. It was all a dream, a nightmare. Dan caught up with me; he slowed down his steps as he walked towards me. Kneeling down before me, he tried to hold my arm when I flung it off before he could even touch it. “Don’t touch me.” I said with anger in my voice. He was stunned, his hand in mid air before trying to hold me again. “Don’t freaking touch me with your dirty hands.” I said through my gritted teeth as I looked at him. His eyes were unreadable. I stood up and he followed me. I started walking to my house and he was following me behind. I finally could not stand it; I turned around and gave him a slap. “So everything was fake after all? All those hugs, kisses, loves that we shared. It doesn’t matter to you does it?!” I shouted as tears started to fall from the corner of my eyes. His fingers rose to wipe the tears away from my face and I quickly took a step back. “Don’t. Don’t ever come near me.” I quickly ran into my house and shut the door harshly behind me, leaning on the door; I sat down on the floor and cried my heart out. I could hear Dan apologizing behind the door but at that time, I seriously don’t care. [End of flashback]
I woke up due to my alarm’s ringing, I fell asleep. I touched my face, it was wet. Was I crying? I shrugged it off and went to prepare. Reaching school, people started to avoid me as usual and no, I didn’t see the Keith again. I lay my head on the table as soon as I reached the classroom. When did I feel so exhausted? Students began to fill the classroom and the bell rang just when the teacher came in. I sat up a little straighter, I don’t disrespect my teachers. Well, not always. “Ahem. Class, we have a new transfer student today. Come in please.” I paid no attention to what the teacher said; I looked out to the window beside me, enjoying the scenery. “Hello. My name is Dan.” Dan? Dan? It was like something triggered me, I immediately stood up from my desk. Everyone’s eyes were at me but at that moment, I simply didn’t care. My eyes fix on the person in front, even he was shocked and I was right, it really is Dan. Looking at him made me think about my past, my gullible self and I hate it, a lot. I swiftly walked out of the classroom, not caring what everyone is thinking. I went to the girl’s bathroom that no one would go to. Why? Why is he here? I tried so hard to leave everything behind, but then he came after me. It’s like a nightmare that keeps haunting me, leaving me with no oxygen.
[Flashback] I immediately threw everything, all my belongings into the luggage. I called my parents and told them that I want to leave here. They came home immediately and asked me what happen. I cried, telling them that I want to leave desperately. They knew what happened and decided not to ask me for fear that I would break down again. I called Jennie and told her that I’m sorry, she understood. She said that we could still keep in touch with each other through the internet. That’s why I love her, she understood everything. There, I leave everything behind. All my memories and I swore never to be that pathetic silly girl ever again. [End of flashback]
Now he’s back? I’m lost. I don’t know what to do. How could I face him? Looking at him reminds me of how he cheated on me, reminds me of our love. No, there’s no love at all. It’s all lies. Just because he came back doesn’t mean that I am weak. I’m independent now and I won’t let him crumpled everything I’ve done. I looked at my reflection, I don’t recognize myself anymore. There seems to be no display of emotion on my face. Well, this is for the best isn’t it? No emotions mean no sadness and pain.
After don’t know how long of time I spent in the girl’s bathroom, I walked out. I’ve thought on how I would react if I see him. Just when I turned to a corner, I walked into someone. I was about to curse when I look at the person. I was speechless. Dan, standing there looking at me with emotions that I could not describe in his eyes. He’s looking perfect as always, he smiled at me and said “Hey Jasmine, long time no see.” His smile is one of the things that made me love him. Wait, what am I thinking about? Jasmine! This person is the one who cheated on you and yet he’s pretending that nothing has happened? I quickly composed myself and walked off after giving him a cold look. I keep telling myself not to turn back. I quickly walked out from his sight and went to my next class. This isn’t as easy as I thought. A few days passed by like this, with me trying to avoid Dan. I didn’t know why but I just couldn’t face him. It was another brand new day and there’s a rumor about a new hot guy coming in our school. I didn’t bother about the rumors; it was the usual whenever a new student is coming, “Hello everyone, I’m Nathaniel. I just came back from an overseas trip. Please guide me along.” He was… Cute. His eyes seem to be smiling and he looks fit and muscular. “Alright Nathaniel, go and take a seat beside Jasmine.” I didn’t bother to raise my hand as it’s clearly that the vacant seat is beside me and thus, I’m Jasmine. He walked towards the seat beside me and turned to me, “hello.” I looked briefly at him and nodded then I faced outside the window again. From then, we didn’t bother with each other.
After class, I swiftly walked out of the classroom till I bumped into someone. “Ouch!” That person said. “Sorry… Not.” I said as I looked up to see the person that I never wanted to see again. I began to walk away till he grabbed my arm. “What happen? Why have you changed?” He asked me. He still dares to ask? “Let me go. Now.” I said it through my gritted teeth. I struggled to get out of his hold but he kept on tightening his grip around my arm. Just when I was about to shout, another arm came and pulled my arm away from his grasp. “Touch her one more time and you’ll get it.” That voice said. I looked up to see my savior, Nathaniel. He seems different… Dangerous, but dangerously cute. “Who are you to her?” Dan asked. He seems to be taunting Nathaniel. Yeah. Who is Nathaniel to me? Why is he helping me when I’ve treated him coldly? “I am someone… special to her.” My eyes widened in shocked. Special? Dan looked at me to see if what Nathaniel is saying the truth but, I was being dragged away.
We sat at the side of the pool, looking at swimmers swimming. “Thank you… For helping me just now.” “No problem.” We kept quiet, not knowing what to say. “Err, aren’t you going to ask me anything?” “You will tell me, if you want to.” He’s different from any kind of guys I knew before. Dan, even if you don’t feel like telling him, he’ll force you to. “He… He is Dan. I’ve dated him before but… But he cheated on me.” My tears were threatening to fall. “I thought… I thought that we would last. I thought everything we shared were real. But no, it’s all a dream. Too good to be true.” I couldn’t hold it any longer, my tears spilled onto my cheeks. I didn’t know why I told him everything. Could he be, someone special to me? He lightly pushed my head on his shoulder, and wraps his arm around my shoulder, comforting me.
We became very close soon after and Dan stopped talking to me. Nathaniel didn’t tell everyone my secrets. Because of him, my cold barrier I’ve built to protect myself broke and shattered. I stopped being bitchy to everyone and instead, I’ve friends now. I walked into the school, seeing couples everywhere. Today it’s Valentine’s Day. I opened my locker to find roses and chocolates. I took out the shiny light blue card at the side. It says ‘if you could, please meet me now at the rooftop. I’m waiting for you, ever. –Love.’ It didn’t say who it is from, so I decided to go and find out.
After climbing few flights of stairs, I’m exhausted. I opened the door to the rooftop way, to see a guy’s back. “Hey, you’re…?” I asked. He turned around and surprised me. It’s Nathaniel! “Nathaniel? What are you doing here? Wait, are you the one who sent me the card?” I eyed him suspiciously. He began to walk towards me. “I know that you have a sad history before but, I’m different. I’m not like him who would break your heart. I would treasure you, more than anything. I can ensure you that all this is not a dream. Its reality, real, the truth. Would you… Would you be my girlfriend?” I was stunned for the moment. “Answer please?” He said. “Oh erm. I…” Would he be like Dan? No, he would not. He’s different from Dan. “I would.” He broke into a smile and hugged me. I never thought I could love again, but now. I know, Nathaniel had my heart forever.

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