I’ve cried for countless times, I’ve waited for very long, I’ve tried calling, I’ve tried all ways to find him, but he has not appeared. I could only see him through the television, him being interviewed. For these 2 months, I’m sick and tired of it. Was I being used as a spare toy? I don’t know if there’s love anymore. It’s always me loving him and not him loving me. Even if he does love me, I don’t feel it. I’m going to end this once and for all.
I watched today’s news. They said that he came back from business. I looked at my phone, no calls or texts. He is a business man, a very successful one. Our relationship has been kept as a secret as he didn’t want paparazzi to follow me everywhere. I didn’t mind if our relationship is public or not, but is he that busy to not find me at all? This shall be the end, I thought as I wrote a letter.
Dear Ken,
Maybe by the time you’ve read this letter, you won’t be seeing me anymore. At least, I hope you won’t be. I’m happy for everything we had gone through for the first 3 months but these 2 months I really could not stand it anymore. Where’ve you been? I’ve been trying all means to contact you to no avail. Do you want a break up? Why can’t you just say it in my face? Why must you hide around, to hurt me even more? I’m sorry. It’s draining my energy to love you. Find a better person who can love you more than me. Waiting for you, is like forever.
Love,
Charlotte.
My tears were uncontrollably rolling down my cheeks. Our 5 months relationship is going to end like this? I packed everything he had given me into a box, putting the letter inside too. Once I have reached his house, I placed the box outside the doorstep. I rang the doorbell 3 times and quickly went home. I quickly packed everything I need into my luggage and also quickly booked a ticket to Australia, for the time being. I needed to get everything out of my mind for now. As I was fumbling with the door lock, “you really gave up on me?” I dropped my keys when I heard him. I slowly turned around to face him; his beautiful features never failed to stun me. I continued to stare at his beautiful eyes. “I know what I did was wrong, I really do. Please, give me – no give us a chance again. Will you?” Without me knowing, I started to cry again. “No… No, please. Leave me alone will you?” “Why? I’m sorry, I… My manager says that I’ve spent too much time on relationship and I began to neglect my company so I… I” “So you decided to hurt me instead?!” I shouted.
I continued as he kept quiet. “Was everything just a dream? Did you know, how much time I’ve spent finding you. You could have told me… You could have told me everything! But no, you chose to run away. Leaving me heartbroken. I’m tired really. Loving you is like loving someone who would never love me back! It’s always me struggling to love you, not you trying your best to show me love…” “No, you’re wrong. I really lo-..” “STOP. Don’t say it… You know, overall… What hurts me the most?” I chuckled darkly. “Cruelest fact of all, I still love you.”
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